do not copy!

2006-05-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

You've hurt me to many timesYou've put me through so muchI'm tired of being hurt by you

2006-05-09T20:05:00.000+08:00

Ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
Kahit pa sinasadya
Mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
Bawat sandali na lang

Tulad mo ba akong nahihirapan
Lalo’t naiisip ka
Di ko na kaya pa na kalimutan
Bawat sandali na lang

[chorus]

At aalis magbabalik
At uuliting sabihin
Na mahalin ka’t sambitin
Kahit muling masaktan
Sa pag-alis
Ako’y magbabalik
At sana naman

Sa isang marikit na alaala’y
Pangitaing kay ganda
Sana nga’y pagbigyan
Na ng tadhana
Bawat sandali na lang

Sumabay sa biglang pagkabahala’t
Lumabis ang pagtataka
Tunay na pagsintang di alintana
Bawat sandali na lang

[repeat chorus]

[repeat 1st stanza]

[repeat chorus]

2006-04-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

I love the way we finish each other's sentences.
I love the way I know you'll never give up on me.
I love the fact that I wouldn't ever give up on you.
I love the way you look at me.
I love how beautiful your eyes are.
I love the way I can't imagine a day without you in my life.
I love the way if we were ever separated I wouldn't know how to go on.
I love the way we cuddle and watch sunsets together.
I love the way we sometimes stay up all night and just talk, then watch the sunrise together.
I love how I know you'll always be there when I need you to be.
I love the fact that I will always be there for you too.
I love how when I dream of my life partner, the only person that I can see is you.
I love how complete I feel when I am with you.
I love how our bodies just fit together.
I love the way you make me laugh.
I love the way you laugh.
I love the way you won't compromise yourself when we are together.
I love the way you won't let me compromise myself.
I love your thoughtfulness.
I love your tenderness.
I love your ability to speak without saying a single word.
I love the way we glance at each other across the room and know what each other is thinking.
I love the way, how even though we may be miles apart I still feel like you're right here with me.
I love the way you surprise me with the perfect gifts that show you pay attention to me.
I love the way you'll watch a sporting game with me even though you may not be interested in it.
I love the way you treat my friends.
I love your love for the things that interest me.
I love the way you let me live my life freely without jealousy.
I love how you demand respect but are not controlling.
I love how I would do anything in this world to make you happy.
I love how you would do anything in this world to make me happy.
I love the way your voice sounds over the phone.
I love the way your voice sounds when you whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
I love the completeness and oneness I feel when we make love.
I love your sensuality.
I love how our romance feels like the perfect romance movie.
I love how you are my soul mate.
I love the way you handle troubled times.
I love the way you respect me.
I love the way you protect and defend me.
I love how you feel when we cuddle.
I love the softness of your lips against mine.
I love the softness of you lips against my body.
I love the feeling of your hair brushing against me when we make love.
I love laying in bed at night talking about nothing.
I love waking up to find we've been cuddling together all night.
I love the surprises you leave for me.
I love your intelligence.
I love your ingenuity.
I love your ability to make friends where ever we go.
I love your love for life.
I love your passion for your hobbies and interests.
I love how every time I look at you, you take my breath away.
I love how I thank God everyday for bringing someone as wonderful as you into my life.
I love the fact you gave me the gift of our children.
I love the special moments that we shared that will remain my fondest memories of you and I.
I love spending the holidays with the one person I love the most.
I love how my heart skips a beat whenever you walk into the room.
I love how you love me.
I love how I love you.
I love the ways you choose to show your affection for me.
I love the way you inspire me to be more than I am.
I love the way you spark my creativity and imagination.
I love the way you make me feel like anything is possible as long as I'm with you.
I love your sense of humor.
I love the way you make me feel like royalty.
I love the way you dress.
I love your understated elegance.
I love you just the way you are.
I love your spontaneity.
I love our life together.
I love how if I died right now I would be the happiest person alive knowing I found my one true love.
I love the fact that we will grow old together.
I love your way with words.
I love the way you look when your sleeping.
I love the way you think you look awful when you first wake up when it is actually then I find you the most beautiful.
I love your willingness to share everything and most especially your heart with me.
I love your strength of character.
I love taking showers together.
I love the way you leave me love notes to find whenever you're gone.
I love the way you treat me.
I love the way you take care of us.
I love your cooking.
I love the way you take the time to thank me for doing every day things.
I love the way you show your affection when we are around friends and/or family.
I love the way you are not scared to show your affection when we are in public.
I love your confidence.
I love your ability to make me feel better when times are tough.
I love the way we make up after a fight.
I love how you treat our children.
I love the way you support me when I'm off track.
I love the way you take the time to show me how much you love me.
I love your beautiful hair.
I love your body.
I love your openness to try new things.
I love your ability to talk things through.
I love your courage to be you.
I love your greatness.
I love the fact that you want to be with me and only me.
I love how I am and feel when I am with you!
I love you for you!

2006-04-20T18:07:00.000+08:00

SPY!!!

My heart belonged to you all those years ago, Just as your heart belonged to me. We were to suffer a cruel fate that would tear us apart but how were we to know that all those years ago?The path's we chose took us in seperate directions~We found each other again as well as we found the love we once shared but better this time. We are currently and always will be on the same path of life...For our lives and eternal love for each other are moving in the same direction.My heart belongs to you once more, Just as your heart belongs to me. I just wanted to tell you I love you and that deep down we both know this was truly meant to be.~

2006-04-20T18:04:00.000+08:00

In silence we mostly stay,

Always together we had prayed,

But something happened and we fell apart,

Crushing my dreams, and breaking my heart,

To be loved by you was a gift from above,

But I have a confession to make,

And it involves the word love,

I need to say it for my hearts sake,

My heart won't allow me to let you go,

It yearns and misses you so,

I tried to leave to mend the pain,

But you wanted me to stay,

Do you know you drive me absolutely insane?

Sadened and hurting my heart goes on,

Knowing that it'll be forever gone,

Because in your hands is where it lies,

Alone and depressed it sadly cries,

Love meant so much to me at one time,

I made it clear with every rhyme,

What we had I cherish most,

I hope you know that I'll never forget it,

You will always be in my heart.

Now is where I start my confession,

Please know that this is how I truly feel,

And for once in my life, you made it all real,

You made me happy through my depression,

You showed me love when I was giving up on myself,

When we were together you made me feel free,

You made me feel like I could do anything if I had you with me,

My heart knows no bounderies,

Time meant nothing,

Loving you from afar is hard,

But the hand I've been delt had faulty cards,

For here I am writing this goodbye,

It hurts me to write this, all I can do is cry,

I know you had intentions that you just didn't show,

I know it's hard and sometimes you just want to let go,

I guess I'll let you go now, though my heart still says no,

It'll take awhile but some day I'll understand That you will no longer be my ever loving man,

I won't hear you call my name,

Nothing will ever be the same,

I won't ever feel your most intimate touch,

God knows though,

I'll miss you so much...

I love you with all my heart and soul,

You made me feel I finally belonged,

and made me whole,

I know sometimes love proves wrong,

And I know sometimes love proves right,

But through it all I believed you were the one,

I still believe that, though we're now done,

How this happened, I just don't know,

We had a love so deep, it was unbreakable,

Goodbye isn't forever though.

You don't want me the way you did,

And I can't stay if thats how you feel,

I know you said you still want to meet,

And I know there's still a chance in real life for us,

I used to believe that was true,

But I was kidding myself, and I was kidding you,

Love isn't forever like I thought it was,

I learned it as a child from a fairy tale,

Fairy tales are a lie to catch the weak,

To put in their minds the things they can not seek,

The things I once believed in,

I can't anymore,

Because every time I believed,

it seems my heart got sore,

To make this shorter I'll stop here,

Just know one thing,

My greatest confession that I have to make,

Is that I love you too much to just walk away...

2006-04-20T17:39:00.000+08:00

A TRASH!!! JUST GOT IT FROM THE CLOSET... no meaning... no hidden agenda... just a part of the history... (believe me!!!)

hello.

i find no courage on telling you this right straight to your face. im such a klutz and a coward for that matter.i have a story to tell. a tale maybe left to be untold. but i chose to tell due to reasons you might understand after you read it.remembering how everything started is a pain. why? because i cant remember it anymore. insignificant? maybe that time, y-e-s. a princess was with a prince (or maybe she thought shes with one) the princess was happy (or maybe she thought she is) the princess came to a point of letting go gradually... painfully...surrendering to the unexplainable feeling of hurt and madness... (or maybe she wanted to believe that she experienced it) her heart, a so so unexperienced heart was broken into pieces... she poured her heart with friends... friends she trusted more of her life in a new system she thought she cant stand with. on her pouring of very sourful heart, then came a stranger. a new stranger she thought that would not even make a mark in her life. a new stranger that can be or not, her true friend. it was not until she found comfort on the sides of this new chum. she hadn't realize what is really happening until one cold, rainy midnight, out of the blue and without a clue, the princess, in a way, disclosed her feelings towards a stranger who loves another princess. feeling rejected (GOD for the second time) the princess was unable to discuss what she really wanted to say... it was not love, she was sure of that thing. she cant say the it was him he wanted to be with.. maybe she can live without him... but...as jen aniston said in rumor has it... "i just dont want to.." yes, the princess dont want to live a life without this stranger. she felt "something" that was felt towards someone whom you longed for. but it was not love that time. i can attest to that. (i was the princess' alter ego by the way) but it was something she's unsure of... so she tried to forget her feelings. redirected her attention. but then, it pains her more to see that she cant do something about the unexplainable feeling she has with this stranger. she's happy when she's with him. happier when she hears stories about his father's curiosity. happiest when he looks at her eyes. direct. with a snap. she's sad when he's nowhere to be found. sadder when he cant be reached. saddest when no 'hello' for a day is received. and she even experienced jealousy. her friends in her rubbish castle told her that maybe she started falling in love with him. but how? and why?! why would the princess allowed such silly feeling. he can never be hers. it was a stupid idea. she told the queen about her feelings. the great queen just said, "let go... he's meant for somebody else." in pain, she eventually let go of the feeling, but not the person. but it was very hard. she sees him every day (or maybe she longed to see him every single day) then something happened. it twisted everything. it twisted the masterplan. all that started as 'hirits' became shocking reality bites... all that started as 'biro' became electric bolts that hit the princess... fragile as she was... the experiences left her crying -- again. she wanted to fight for what she felt... she wanted to tell the world that its him she wanted to cry, laugh, watch movies, star gaze, run, fight... but she cant, because it will only cause her another pain that she knows she cant bear anymore. she wanted to quit. just like it. erase him in her life. he wouldnt allow it (or maybe it is what the princess thought) easy way out? no... its the hardest way out... leaving someone is never easy... the stranger is stupid for saying that it was... until now, everything is left hangin' maybe the princess doesnt like the idea... but it was the only way... the only way to keep him.. the only way to have a small part of him... a great man said, 'throw everything away... all the sad stories... the princess should not leave painful stories in her heart' b-u-t not all are sad... not all are painful... not all... most of it is a treasure.. a sure keeper.. but then a decision must be made. she heard from a friend how deeply in love is the stranger to her princess. and also, it was informed to her that the princess, in return, have feelings for the stranger. with that news, the princess made her decision.she may not know if its love or what..that had happened to her...but she's positive that she'll let go of the feeling she had for the stranger because.. like the line from a movie... "he's not here to fight... to fight with me..." and as soon as he read this, he was free from her.you are free from my feelings.

i let you go.

goodbye.

2006-04-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

You short little bitch,
I hate you.
I hope you die,
and burn in hell too.

You think you're punk,
and you call me a fake.
Yea I bet you fuckin,
want a piece of that cake.

You think you and ____,
are attached at the hip.
Yea fuckin right.
What's up with your fuckin lip?

Nobody fuckin likes you,
So just fuckin go away.
You waste your breathe when you speak,
Nobody gives a fuck what you have to say.

You bug the shit out of me with
your "I think I'm punk" shit.
You wish someone would,
lick your fuckin clit.

I can't stand your bitch ass,
at cafe you act all shy.
All I have to say to you is
SUCK A DICK BITCH DIE!

You run your fuckin mouth,
behind my back.
Cut the childish shit,
and go suck on ____'s sack.

I dont give a fuck if,
you hate me.
I dont want anything to do with you,
Can't you see?

I wouldnt have to be a bitch,
If you didnt open your fuckin mouth.
I hate you so much,
Everytime I see you I just want to shout.

AARRGGHH!!
I hope you like this poem because I fuckin do.
It was written specialy for you,
From the bottom of my heart, FUCK YOU!

* AY NAKOW... INSECURITIES MIGHT KILL PEOPLE! WAAH! AYT?!!! *
hApPy 25TH MaNsErI mAHaL!!! LOVE KITA! ...A LOT!

2006-01-05T18:49:00.000+08:00

Letting Go!

After breaking up with someone you loved, even if you were the one who decided to end it and don't feel rejected, you still feel a sense of loss, and you ache for the love you were getting that's now gone. All these feelings have to work themselves out of your system. It's a process you must go through, similar to grieving or getting over an addiction, and some researchers say that it can take up to half as long as the relationship lasted.

However, just as there are ways to make the "In Love" feeling happen (see "Why People Love"), there are ways to encourage the "Out Of Love" feeling as well. Here are some proven guidelines for helping you regain a normal emotional state in the shortest period of time:

1. Make a clean break

Quit seeing your ex, totally. You've become addicted to their love, and the only way to recover is cold turkey. If you keep seeing him or her, it's like a drug addict begging for "just one more" hit. Don't call. Don't "just be friends." Because each time you get close enough to your ex to get the good parts of what you once had, you'll get the bad parts too.

2. Write a last love letter

There are always so many things you still want to say to your ex. Write a letter that says them all and then don't send it. Put it away. Just writing it will make you feel better. You'll be relieved of carrying around the thoughts in your mind and free yourself for new and better things.

3. Make a "hate list"

When you break up, you often forget the bad times and only yearn for the good ones. Before you forget, write down every nasty mean thing your ex ever did so that you can look at the list whenever you start to feel nostalgic for your old romance. (Don't send this, either...)

4. Use "thought-stopping" to combat sad thoughts

If you think, "If only I could get (him or her) back, everything would be all right." Or, "I just wish I could see (him or her) one more time." These thoughts will only frustrate you and make you sad. Stop the unhappy thoughts by keeping a rubber band around your wrist. When you have the obsessive thoughts about your ex, snap the rubber band as soon as the thought starts to happen. That way you'll begin to associate the sad thoughts with the aversion therapy you're using. After a while, the thoughts will stop by themselves as soon as they start.

5. Avoid sad associations

Don't listen to sad songs on the radio. Skip the stations that remind you of your ex. Listen to music without words for a while. Don't go to the places you went with your ex. Put away all the pictures and momentos that remind you of your ex. Put away the gifts you got and even rearrange your furniture or stay with a friend for awhile if there are too many sad memories at home. Stay away from friends of your ex and avoid seeking gossip about your ex. Whatever you hear, you won't feel any better.

6. Find someone new

Force yourself to date. Don't be a recluse. I know you're not ready to get serious about someone else yet, but it's important to get out and get circulating, and a new man or woman in your life will be a pleasant distraction. But resist the temptation to cry on their shoulder, no matter how sympatico they seem. Don't even start to tell the new person about your ex and how bad it was. Just enjoy the new relationship.

2006-01-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Ouch! Para sa mga iniwanan!!!

Naturally, when someone leaves you, you feel as if you've been rejected. You have been. And it doesn't really matter what the reasons are, you're going to feel terrible. Broken-hearted.

The reason you feel so bad may actually have more to do with your future fantasies than with present day reality. When you lose someone, you aren't just losing that person for today, you're losing the fantasy of spending the rest of your life with that person.

You feel disoriented and generally awful because you've become used to having the other person in your life, to thinking about him or her, and futurizing about your future together.

You've become addicted to the pleasure you got from them.

We all want to control the source of our pleasure, and when that source is taken away, our first instinct is to try to get it back. Don't. Instead, take steps to get over the person as soon as possible. Like grieving, it's a process which you work through in stages. Follow the steps in your heart to make the process go as fast and as painlessly as possible.

Meanwhile, your friends will probably urge you to keep busy and get involved in new activities. It's good advice, but you may feel too miserable to follow it. I'm going to give you two reasons to try, and then give you a secret for doing it.

First, don't give your ex the satisfaction of hearing that you're moping around so he or she can say, "See, who'd want to be stuck with that sad sack?" Second, although it would be admittedly terrible timing, Mr. or Ms. Right could pop into your life right now, and you wouldn't want to be so busy carrying a torch for your ex that you'd miss the opportunity of a lifetime.

2005-12-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

nakakapagod pero masarap!!! namimiss ko na hubby ko...=(

2005-11-16T10:53:00.000+08:00

errors during upload of photos

2005-11-13T17:31:00.000+08:00

gusto ni spyder ito...

2005-11-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

just like this baby, pagod na din ang mahal ko... i wanted to help him (really...) but i'm so helpless... uh oh!

2005-11-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

ang tagal kong walang blog... masyadong busy at sinaktan na naman ako ni kupido!!!

12 sure fire signs that the end is near... (katapusan na nga ba ni spyyyder at ni danda?)

Getting dumped -- it happens to the best of us and nothing feels worse. Losing love is hard enough but add rejection to the mix and it can be devastating. When you've been dumped it feels like your world is closing in to smother you and you wonder if you will ever feel happy again. The good news is "yes" one day you will feel happy again, you will love again and the loss will become nothing more than a life experience. But when you are in the middle of it, caught in those end days of a once blossoming relationship, it can feel like the confusion will never end.

1. S/he is suddenly busy all the time, and never seems to have time to spend with you. When you find yourself becoming less and less of a time priority, even if the reasons for the distance seem logical, it is never a good thing.
2. You find that only your fingers do any walking. If you are the only one who ever picks up the phone, especially if the phone calling used to be split pretty equally, break up bells should start ringing.
3. When you call, more often than not you are asked to leave a message. Be it a parent, sib or friend, if somebody else always seems to answer the phone and take a message you are probably being screened, and we don't screen people we want to talk to!
4. S/he says s/he is one place but is really another. People do not tend to lie for no reason, if s/he is not being honest about where s/he is or who s/he is with there is rarely a noble reason for the deception.
5. You don't seem to connect anymore. Remember how when you were first getting together you would run into each other in unexpected places, like between classes or at the mall? If these "accidental" meetings become less common place it may be no accident at all.
6. Her/his friends seem distant. When somebody wants out of a relationship they often let their friends in on the secret well ahead of time. If your steady's friends seem less friendly it is a good indicator that they know something you don't and that it probably isn't good.
7. The lovin' is gone! When affection and PDAs (public displays of affection) start to dwindle is could mean the fire of love is also going out.
8. S/he starts introducing you to new people as "a friend". If s/he is calling you a friend that is all s/he sees you as -- bottom line.
9. You seem to be fighting a lot about little things. Lots of little fights often mean much bigger things are really at issue.
10. Kissing and telling. Respect is a relationship essential, once it has been compromised the relationship often follows suit.
11. You just can't seem to do ANYTHING right. Be it the style of your hair or the way you walk, if your steady suddenly finds fault with everything you do s/he is probably trying to push you away.
12. You avoid any conversation that begins with "we have to talk" or "I don't know how to say this." If your steady is using these opening lines a break up speech usually follows. If you are avoiding conversations that start like this it is probably because you sense that a break up is near and think tha if you avoid the talk it won't happen. You are wrong, if a person wants out of a relationship they will get out whether you let them tell you or not. Avoiding this talk is just prolonging the inevitable.

2005-10-29T10:14:00.000+08:00

3 Days After my B-day(boring day!!!=0)

(ano nga ba nagyari?)

m-o-r-n-i-n-g
1 "litanya" from dad and mom
1 hour taking a bath
1 spicy chicken noodle
1 cup of coffee
1 hour convincing my Dino to go with me inMakati
1 bowl of pork caldereta and adobo
1 P1000 bill in my pocket for the whole day

n-o-o-n
1 "sermon" from Dino
1 ride going to Ayala
1 wrong route going back to Ayala Av
1 hour walking in G4
1 yucky hanky
1 missed call from Tita Nona in Spain
1 Mcfloat
1 numb foot
1 bad-hair-day
1 P500 bill left in my pocket
1 wet umbrella

e-v-e-n-i-n-g
1 loooonnnnnnnnnngg "sermon" from tito's and tita's
1 hour left before my unlimited text ends
1 new flipflop
1 cup of rice
1 thigh part of chicken
1 glass of lemonade
1 120 mL of Jean Patou From Mimi Lez
1 call from superfwends

...but Dino made it "REALLY" incredibly special!

2005-10-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

**THINGS GIRLS THINK GUYS SHOULD KNOW**

For your Monday funny bone....

1. Don't ever lie to us, we always find out.
2. We don't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.
3. Don't say you understand when you don't.
4. Girls are pretty, get over it.
5. You don't have PMS; don't act like you know what it's like.
6. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.
7. If you talk about having a big dick, we know you don't.
8. Size does matter.
9. We don't like it when you act like Mr. Big; we like it when you are Mr. Big.
10. A system in your car only impresses your homeboys.
11. No matter what you say, your ex girlfriend is a hoe.
12. It's good to be sensitive, sometimes.
13. If you did something wrong or even if you didn't, apologize.
14. Be spontaneous, dinner and a movie won't always cut it.
15. We are self-conscious by nature, we can't help it.
16. We are drama queens.
17. Fashion police do exist.
18. Don't ask us to give head; if you are nice you just might get it.
19. We absolutely do not care about monster trucks, car systems, paintball or anything else you and your friends talk about.
20. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.
21. We don't shave our legs every day, get over it.
22. Don't make bets about us, we always find out.
23. Shave- no matter how cool you think it looks, we hate it.
24. Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not.
25. Don't compare our breasts with Pamela Anderson's, hers are fake.
26. It is not cool to shoot snot rockets.
27. We are beautiful, but make-up helps.
28. We will always think we are fat so humor us and tell us we aren't.
29. You can shoot hoops, score a goal, knock down big fat guys, and hit a little baseball with a stick so why the hell can't you piss in the toilet and not on it.
30. Most importantly- we are always right- so don't forget it

2005-10-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

NEW ORLEANS (Reuters) - Rock 'n' roll pioneer Fats Domino, who was missing for days after Hurricane Katrina, returned home on Saturday to load some of his muddied gold records into the trunk of a car.

2005-10-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

tapos na ang ojt....

2005-10-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

The Glowing Candle

by Zahra Faisal Asghar

I hear footsteps from afar,
heading softly towards my heart..
The path is quiet, since a while,
shadows of silence .. lay miles and miles.
For my love I have spread,
petals of thought and dreams to pick..
memories strewn on the ground he treads..
And..
as love's fragrance carries him near..
the drums of heartbeat he will hear.
Close to the door of my soul,
awaits a candle's dancing glow,
burning gently, incessantly..
safely held till eternity,
sheltered between these palms of mine,
protected from the blowing
storms of time....

2005-10-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

"When mean people hurt you, think of them as sandpapers. they may rub and scratch u painfully but eventually, you'll end up smooth and polished while they end up WORN OUT!!!"

2005-10-08T16:39:00.000+08:00

ang mahal ko, ang pikon pikon... yesterday was horrible! basta! i could never imagine pa'nu nangyari yun... pero everytime we have a fight, cute pa din un magalit!*wink*

2005-10-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

end of the week came... haaaayyy too fast. 17 days to go before my b-day!!! (anung meron?) wala... nabanggit ko lang... aside from that masarap na ube & shanghai given to me by my hubby, walang ng masaya sa araw na'to. i have changed my blog again. hehehehe... d makuntento kc. hanap pa'ko maganda ilagay na abubot dun bukod sa "huntahang kahon."

2005-10-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

Words never seem to express the deepest thoughts inside,
snatching any possibilities to profess my love to you.
Daily I look into your eyes full of endearment and joy.

This strong attraction of lust and desire cannot hide,
cornering our emotions and feeling of what we want to do.
Can we exist as genuine lovers, or is it all a ploy?

Our hands touch sending shockwaves of heat way down.
The tension mounts between our bodies as we walk.
Flirting glances with coy smiles heighten my senses.

You are my other half, my love. Within your sight I drown.
Sensual are your ways, smooth are your words as you talk.
electrifying is our desire, breaking down our defenses.

Forbidden love or not, I will take this all in with pride.
To profess my undying loyalty to you with no shame to hide.

To feel your body press against mine is my deep need.
When will the sensual tension we have be forever freed?

I seek to be consumed by the forbidden passion that awaits,
bask in the glow of sensuous heat that slowly dissapates.

2005-10-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

Sino ang mabait na magti-treat sa'kin sa EK? Lapit na b-day ko!!!

2005-10-05T16:49:00.000+08:00

I have planned to give mahal a new cellphone this x'mas... isn't this nice? he's always making reklamo with his cp. eh aku nga napag-lumaan na ng panahon ang gamit kong cel. haaayyyy...

2005-10-01T10:43:00.001+08:00

Happy 19th Monthsary sa other half ko!!! Let's celebrate... hehehe

2005-09-30T19:44:00.000+08:00

Pagod na..... bukas na lang ako magpopost ng ayos..... bad mood na eh

2005-09-27T17:14:00.000+08:00

It's dangling above me

The light coming from behind it's like a wonderful eclipseIt's swaying...

this way

that way

Something begins to fall

Slowly it drops and lands upon my face

The sweet taste of blood fills my mouthand drips down my neck

I want more!

I need more!

But still it hangs there

it sways hereand thereoh please!

give me more!

another drop and oh

how wonderfully warm and soothingit is

to taste this

i am lost in this sea of passion

please

oh please!

let me taste the salty flesh from which it

the steak that hangs there

floating above my head

tempting me

teasing me

torturing me

just like your love...

2005-09-26T21:05:00.000+08:00

Love and Commitment

God said:
Let My thoughts be yours.
Catch on to My thinking.
Absorb it.
Enough of your own.
You have chosen folly.
Now choose love.
Serve Me.
Enough of this self-serving of your imaginary self.
Serve Truth.
Be a servant of Truth instead of a purveyor of illusion.
Let Us talk a moment of convenience. How much has convenience ruled your life?
Convenience isn't the same as ease.
Serving your convenience is another form of control that you exert.
Convenience is sort of an opposite to commitment.
When you make a commitment, you are telling yourself what is true.
But you do not know how to reconcile making a commitment and being free.
But there is One to Whom you can make a commitment. There is One to Whom you must, because without that commitment, you are bound.
You free yourself by coming to Me.
You allay your fears by coming to Me.
Your big fear has been to come to Me, for you see that commitment as loss, when, all the while, bondage to the illusory world is what you will let go of. What do you lose when you gain freedom? But freedom is not a passing convenience.
You hold on to your imagined sovereignship for dear life, and you call it convenience. You sleep a little longer, and you call that freedom. Often what My children call freedom is a poor choice. It is more of a declaration than a choice.
Make your own declaration of independence, and make it with Me. Unfurl yourself from the dictatorship of your life that you have imposed upon yourself.
Be My love.
Set My flag up, not yur solitary one.
You have been a man on a little island, proudly waving your flag over two feet of space.
Abandon selfishness. Abandon convenience. Join with Me. You can no longer live on your island. You must abdicate your wobbly throne there and sit high with Me on a golden throne that covers creation.
Master love rather than convenience.
The mastery of love is surrender to that which is greater than your imagined wants.
Get back on course.
Address your heart to Me.
Give it to Me.
Give it to Me in trust of Me and not of yourself. You are not so dependable. You rule by whim. I rule by love. Whim is not freedom. Love is.
Today deliver yourself to Me.
Unwrap your bondage.
Come unadorned.
Come as you are, a perfect child of God who leaves behind chains of ignorance. What is your ego but ignorance? What is love but Truth?
The truth is that you are My love bequeathed to Myself for your sake.
Look at Me.
Be not afraid.
Looking at Me is gain.
Looking away is less than gain.
Be My friend.
Come to Me now.
You commit yourself to work, family, sport, entertainment. Now add Me.
I offer you a gift, and you hesitate.
You fear something is being asked of you that you are not ready for.
I am what you have always been ready for.
I am your Readiness, but I may not be your convenience.
Convenience is not spontaneity.
Make a commitment, and a union is formed. You say you want unity when you choose other than Our unity. You want a name perhaps more than you want Me.
It is time for you to find out where you are. Where have you been? Wrapped up in some dream of self-sufficiency, when, all along, only I am sufficient?
You hobble over stones rather than follow Me. You hold on to your little hierarchy and abandon Truth for the nothingness of your self-imposed ignorance.
Pull down that flag you have put up on your island.
Join forces with Me.
Raise a flag that says God.
Accept Our Oneship.
Accept My love and make it yours.
Let Me be your guide rather than imagined convenience.
I am the Easy Way Out. I am the Way In. I am the Way. Admit you have been lost and following other lostness. Now follow the One Who Knows and Who clasps you to His Heart. Form a partnership with Me, and you will be One Great Big Giver of Truth.

-Gloria Wendroff-

2005-09-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

A Looooong Day....

2005-09-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

Whaddya know about Ferdinand Marcos? Well, you'd most likely answer, he was President of the Philippines for a while during the 70s and 80s; he is in the running for the most corrupt man of the 20th century; he liked a little bit of martial law now and again and, oh he was married to that woman with the show fetish. Correct on all counts. As you might imagine the details behind the life of such a man make for intriguing reading. From his aquittal for murder at the age of 19, through the numerous White House visits, to the death of Ninoy Aquino and his eventual fall from power all the significant episodes in the life of Ferdinand Edralin Marcos not ot mention the Martial Law.

2005-09-20T12:58:00.000+08:00

an hirap hirap ng exam... kakalugaw ng utak... i wish i could be happy as this girl in the picture after finding the result. duh!

2005-09-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

Dino, did play as a soccer player before....

2005-09-18T16:29:00.000+08:00

In his fourth year at Hogwarts, Harry faces his greatest challenges and dangers yet. When he is selected under mysterious circumstances as a contestant in the Triwizard Tournament, Harry must compete against the best young wizards from schools all over Europe. But as he prepares, signs begin to point to the return of Lord Voldemort. Before long, Harry is playing not just for the Cup, but for his life. Watch out for this!

2005-09-17T11:27:00.000+08:00

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

- Sheelagh Lennon -

2005-09-16T10:17:00.000+08:00

gutom na 'ko... we're in an internet cafe, getting images that we need to put in our interest page and we're posting na din for our blog. ang lakas lakas ng ulan and we decided not to go to school because SLEX is not passable sa mga vans... imbes na mag-stay na lang sa house, e2 magkasam kami ng mahal ko... better idea huh?!=) for 2 hours we stayed in the cafe. so ngaun, kumukulo na ang tummy ko. i want "goto w/ tokwa" hmmmmm... yummy... tara ng makapag-goto

2005-09-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

Another day of never ending start

2005-09-14T15:54:00.000+08:00

T.Y.A. (Twenty Years After)

I often say that everything happens for a reason; and that everything has its start and of course, its end.

Pain. What does this mean? Literally, it is to make one hurt or suffer. Now, the question is, how in the world would I ever know the first time I would experience this thing that led me crying? What I know is that this pain that I have experienced on my 22nd year of living made me who I am today.

It’s Year 2025 now, where robots controlled the Earth that was once owned by humans, where everything seem so easy yet no one could ever really know and understand what does the word “satisfaction” really means. Everything did change and so do I.

I have changed. I mean it. You know why? Because I have noticed it. I’m not being paranoid and I know it. I am distant now, not like before. There’s only one person whom I going to share my life with, it’s no other than but me! Dramatic. But that’s how the time took care of Retty for 20 long years.

Perhaps, you see me as someone having a brave heart, someone who is always ready to give you a smile, an incomparable smile, as my other half believed. But now, it’s really different. Maybe I still have that character that’s having a me-against-the-world drama. But who knows, I am brave inside, still.

Listen to what I am not saying. If you would only know me, you’ll feel what I have within. I would tell everything to you. I mean everything that I can tell you, all my thoughts and everything. That would be a very long letter, maybe the longest of all the letters that I have written and would write. I would tell you how I hated my life back then. How I hated my so-called family. How I became who I am today. How I learned not to cry at times that I thought I would, how I learned that I was, I am and will always be strong, how everything affected me, how taught me how to stand and stand up straight, how I learned life or just maybe how I’ve gotten a preview of a real world. Not always happiness. Not always my sadness I also want to tell you how I learned or understood to survive.

But everything has its end, this pain, this hatred, these tears, this fixed smile will come to its end… that end is now. T.Y.A.

I don’t know if this article makes sense to you. But this entry made a lot of sense to me.

By the way, MY ENTRY WAS JUST MY INITIAL REACTIONS… I DO LOVE MY FAMILY!!!

2005-09-11T18:27:00.000+08:00

JEALOUSY IS ABOUT FEAR

It is crucial to understand what jealousy is and what it is about. Jealousy is about fear--fear of the unknown and of change, fear of losing power or control in a relationship, fear of scarcity and of loss, and fear of abandonment. It is a reflection of our own insecurity about our worthiness, anxiety about being adequate as a lover, and doubts about our desirability.
For every jealous feeling there is an emotion behind the jealousy that is much more significant than the jealousy itself. Behind jealousy there is an unmet need or a deep fear that our needs will not be met. Recognizing those fears and unmet needs is the key to unmasking jealousy and taking away its power. Jealousy is just the finger pointing at the fears and needs we are afraid to face. When jealousy kicks in, it is the ancient reptilian part of our brain going into a "fight or flight" response because we feel that our very survival is threatened. When you feel jealous, ask yourself, "What is it that I am really afraid of? What do I need to make this situation safe for me?" "What is the worst thing that could happen and how likely is that to happen?" Selosa ako lately... dunno y...

2005-09-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

It's my cousin's 1st birthday... i gained some weight and a belly... harhar... kakapagod. all of our cousins were there. It was celebrated sa kulay pulang fastfood chain at may mascot na bubuyog. we were all happy... an tatakaw... as if mga bata pa kami to think we're all in early 20's at age. nakakapagod. we joined the parlor games. an dupang. hehehe! well, as usual... nothing's seems really different pag weekends. boring... duh! ciao!

2005-09-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

BAD TRIP.... ASK DINO FOR WHAT HAPPENED....

2005-09-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

Even this man could not make me smile now... i missed him..

2005-09-08T18:57:00.000+08:00

Pachuchay!

I was about to post my entry when I heard these guys talking so loud... actually they were really shoutin' haay naku tama ba naman un sa cafe pa nag-away. At 1st, I didn't mind them pero grabe na sila. hellllooooo... ayaw pang umuwi na lang. Then i looked, Oh my god! old time fwends pala. hehehe... beso dyan, beso d2... "Oh pachuchay, blooming ah. Sensya na ang ingay namin!" Yan ang tawag sakin ng mga superfwends ko way back in highschool, ay nakow... ang haba ng usapan. I really missed them. Anyway, gone are the days na magkakasama kami sa gimikan. Nakakalungkot... ganun talaga buhay... sometimes you have to part ways...

2005-09-07T18:45:00.000+08:00

I started to love this anime.... and its because of Dino.

2005-09-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

Another day in our history.... A dull day in the politics....

2005-09-05T18:20:00.000+08:00

FORMER President Corazon Aquino and actress Susan Roces arrived at the House of Representatives on Monday to witness the plenary deliberations on a committee report that dismissed the impeachment complaints filed against President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo.

When would it end?

2005-09-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

Dog Motel?

Two Yorkshire terriers, Billy (R) and Jully (L), sit in a pet motel in Sao Paulo August 26, 2005. The doggy love motel, complete with a heart-shaped mirror on the ceiling and a headboard resembling a doggy bone, has opened for amorous pooches in Brazil. The doggy love motel in Sao Paulo, South America's largest city, was inspired by the thousands of such establishments that rent rooms to Brazilian couples for four-hour periods for trysts. The air-conditioned pet love motel room, with a paw print decorative motif, has a special control panel to dim the lights, turn on romantic music or play films. The dog motel, which opened this month, costs 100 reais ($41) for two hours. Picture taken August 26, 2005. REUTERS/Fernando Cavalcanti

meron pala rin pan-dog... hehehe

2005-09-03T12:56:00.000+08:00

A hand-painted sign outside a New Orleans business warns away looters in the wake of Hurricane Katrina Thursday, Sept. 1, 2005. Ethicists and social psychologists said in interviews that rules of human behavior _ including respect for others' property and for social order itself _ dissolve quickly in desperate circumstances like the storm's aftermath. nde lang Pilipinas an naghihirap ngayon... haaay...

2005-09-02T14:34:00.000+08:00

Crazy Frog

Crazy Frog presents Crazy Hits sees the frog at his finest. In addition to the massive Axel F and Popcorn, the Crazy Frog adds his inimitable style to classics such as the theme to Dallas, Felix's Don't You Want Me, Technotronic's Pump Up The Jam and The Pink Panther theme.

Sorry po sa mga kapamilya... it's my favorite now lalo na pag "bulagaan." This dance hit is kinda weird. It defnitely can't stop you from dancing. The beat was great... at kahit magmukha ka ng retarded, sarap pa din isayaw.

2005-08-31T17:44:00.000+08:00

blah... blah... blah...

Voting 47-4 with one abstention, the House of Representatives Committee on Justice on Wednesday voted against two impeachment complaints filed against President Arroyo in favor of the weaker, original complaint filed by lawyer Oliver Lozano. The vote effectively kills the amended impeachment complaint filed by the House minority bloc, which charges Mrs. Arroyo of bribery, election fraud and betrayal ...

2005-08-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

Relieved...

Just don’t be selfish. When we start loving someone, we try to achieve the love from another side. If it is fifty percentage from your side, let it be. Let others make fun of your failure. But never forget that love is to give rather to achieve. If it is yours, it will come to you by circumstances.

2005-08-28T18:55:00.000+08:00

m-i-s-u-n-d-e-r-s-t-o-o-d

i promise i did my best.. it's the best way i know how. i fought for u.. and still im fightin'. i have loved u from day one and i will even beyond forever. i know i have given my all. it's so sad to know that when u've thought u've given everything, only to find out in the end that it was never enough for the one u love. that was so sad, that after what we have shared together, u just left me without nothing at all.. i'm so sorry coz i used to spend my whole day with u. u taught me how to love but u never taught me how to live without u in my life.. u're so selfish. u know that i can only be happy with u. i wanna grow old with u and live with u for the rest of my life..

2005-08-27T15:58:00.000+08:00

Crazy for You

by: Madonna

Swaying room as the music starts

Strangers making the most of the dark

Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smoky air

Can't you feel the weight of my stare

You're so close but still a world away

What I'm dying to say, you bet

CHORUS

I'm crazy for you

Touch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand newYou'll feel it in my kiss

I'm crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart

I walk over to where you are

Eye to eye we meet, no word at all

Slowly now we begin to move

Every breath I'm deeper into you

Send me to a standing still in time

If you read my mind, you'll see

CHORUS

I'm crazy for you

Touch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand new

You'll feel it in my kiss

You'll feel it in my kiss because I'm crazy for you

Touch me once and you'll know it's true

I never wanted anyone like this

It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss

I'm crazy for you

CODA

And you know it's true, you know I'm crazy for you

And it's all brand new, you know I'm crazy for you

And you know it's true, I'm crazy, crazy for you

I'm crazy for you

2005-08-26T19:49:00.000+08:00

STAY

by: CUESHE

I believe

We shouldnt let the moment pass us by

Life's too short

We shouldnt wait for the water to run dry

Think about it

Cause we only have one shot at destiny

All im asking

Could it possibly be you and me?

So if you'd still go, i'll understand

Would you give me something just to hold on to?

And if you'll stay, ill hold your hand

Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Time has come

For us to go our separate waysGod forbid

But my mind is going crazy today I feel so cold

Feel so numbIm having nightmares but im awake

Help me lord

Fight this loneliness

Take this pain away

So if you'd still go, i'll understand

Would you give me something just to hold on to?

And if you'll stay, ill hold your hand

Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Now that you're gone, im all alone

Im still hoping that you would come back home

Dont care how long, but im willing to wait

Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

2005-08-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

"Charlie and the Chocolate Factory"

Oh my god! i did miss this movie...=( I know this movie equals or maybe even tops the original. (Gene Wilder as Wonka) I promise, I'll get a copy of this film.

2005-08-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

another love story...

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No way

Girl: What would you choose: your life..or
me?

Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and
the boy
runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is
because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love
you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I
would
die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is
because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm
not willing to do you anything for you is because I
would do everything for you.
The reason I chose
my life is because you ARE my life.

2005-08-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

now you're inlove, now you're not...

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart

And for us to be together and never apart

No one else can ever compare your perfect

And so is the love that we share
We have so much more than I ever thought

We could I promise to give you all I have to give

I'll do anything for you As long as I live in your eyes

I see our present, Our future, and past by the way you look at me

I know we will last

I hope that one day

You come to realize how perfect you are

When seen through my eyes

2005-08-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

"Are Filipinos still worth dying for?"

2005-08-20T12:29:00.000+08:00

Untitled

A certain man planted a rose and watered it faithfully and before it blossomed, he examined it. He saw the bud that would soon blossom, but noticed thorns upon the stem and he thought, "How can any beautiful flower come from a plant burdened with so many sharp thorns? Saddened by this thought, he neglected to water the rose, and just before it was ready to bloom... it died. So it is with many people. Within every soul there is a rose.

The God-like qualities planted in us at birth, grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects. We despair, thinking that nothing good can possibly come from us. We neglect to water the good within us, and eventually it dies. We never realize our potential. Some people do not see the rose within themselves; someone else must show it to them.

One of the greatest gifts a person can possess is to be able to reach past the thorns of another, and find the rose within them. This is one of the characteristic of love... to look at a person, know their true faults and accepting that person into your life... all the while recognizing the nobility in their soul. Help others to realize they can overcome their faults. If we show them the "rose" within themselves, they will conquer their thorns. Only then will they blossom many times over.

2005-08-19T16:31:00.000+08:00

Dino's smile

I’d follow you forever, to save you for one day,
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do, no words I wouldn’t say.
I’d find you in an instant, if ever you were lost,
I’d sacrifice it all to you, whatever be the cost.
I’d take away your hurt and pain, if it meant you would be free,
I’d walk around the world twice, if it meant my love you’d see.
If someone ever hurt you, or maybe even tried,
I’d give my all to save you, even if I died.
Just to see you live, I’d die a thousand times,
I’d cast a thousand angels, I’d rhyme a thousand rhymes.
If ever you were sick, I’d stay right by your side,
I’d pretend I wasn’t scared, my tears I’d try to hide.
I’d push you from a speeding car, I’d save you from despair,
I’d be your crying shoulder, when no one else would care.
I’d be there for you all the way, I’d even be your guard.
If and when you need me, I’ll be there right away,
I’d sacrifice my time for you, any night or day.
To see the pain inside your eyes, forever end you see,
I’d chance my life a million times;
For one smile aimed at me.

2005-08-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

IT Exam

Oh my God! that was indeed a very hard exam...(it seems nalaglag ang mga brain cells ko=)) I hate the last part coz it took me half hour just to finish it, forget about the time when I crammed. Woah! that was not a joke... Nah!

2005-08-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

No Ordinary Love
by:MYMP

This could have been
just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
'Cause

[Chorus:]
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love

I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You're every breath that I breathe

[Chorus:]
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'Cause it feels so good to me

[Chorus:] [2x]
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love

2005-08-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

My other half's all time favorite...

"Castor Troy," a name that my hubby really like(kaya in the near future dont get shocked if that would be the name of our baby boy.=))

If my other half will rate his favorite 100 movies, Face/Off would definitely be #1. Incredible acting: Nicolas Cage and John Travolta do excellent jobs as International terrorist Castor Troy and FBI Agent Sean Archer. The stars are flawless when they switch characters. Awesome action: almost non-stop shooting and explosions. Typical John Woo. There is only one tiny little downfall (depending one who you are): there is a phenomenal amount of swearing. Almost every other word.

Galing kc kami yesterday sa Festival Mall and we decided to drop by sa Video City. We saw this film and ang sabi ng Dino ko that was his all time favorite. No wonder! That movie was indeed fantastic. I think my dad and my Dino seems to have a comparison when it comes to films. Harhar! Anyway, napagod lang kami maghapon but its all worth it. I'm with him kc.=)

2005-08-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

"Anyway, I have given my all..."

Commitment is not something you create by saying words; it is an experience of the heart, and passing flirtations have no power over Big Love. There is a principle in organic gardening that is true of relationships: Pests are less likely to attack plants that are growing in healthy soil. You can administer all kinds of pesticides or organic deterrents, but your best defense against intruders is to nourish the soil from which the plant derives its essential nutrients. Given a healthy foundation, plants develop a natural immune system superior to external additives.

The quickest route to hell in a relationship is to expect your partner to fill your emptiness, and the most direct way to heaven is to give what you want to receive. You only receive what you give, and you receive it in the giving. So it comes to this: you can thank and bless the third party as your teacher and awakener. Certainly this was not their intention, but it is the gift you choose to make of him or her. The third party pointed out aspects of yourself, your partner, and your relationship that you may never have discovered, or at least not for a long, long time.

Bless and release the third party and get on with the business of building the kind of relationship you truly desire. Use the affair to create a Big Love with your partner that goes far beyond what shaky love offered, or use the affair to deepen loving yourself or create a more meaningful partnership with another at a later time. Everything serves, and AN AFFAIR IS NO EXCEPTION.