A TRASH!!! JUST GOT IT FROM THE CLOSET... no meaning... no hidden agenda... just a part of the history... (believe me!!!)

hello.

i find no courage on telling you this right straight to your face. im such a klutz and a coward for that matter.i have a story to tell. a tale maybe left to be untold. but i chose to tell due to reasons you might understand after you read it.remembering how everything started is a pain. why? because i cant remember it anymore. insignificant? maybe that time, y-e-s. a princess was with a prince (or maybe she thought shes with one) the princess was happy (or maybe she thought she is) the princess came to a point of letting go gradually... painfully...surrendering to the unexplainable feeling of hurt and madness... (or maybe she wanted to believe that she experienced it) her heart, a so so unexperienced heart was broken into pieces... she poured her heart with friends... friends she trusted more of her life in a new system she thought she cant stand with. on her pouring of very sourful heart, then came a stranger. a new stranger she thought that would not even make a mark in her life. a new stranger that can be or not, her true friend. it was not until she found comfort on the sides of this new chum. she hadn't realize what is really happening until one cold, rainy midnight, out of the blue and without a clue, the princess, in a way, disclosed her feelings towards a stranger who loves another princess. feeling rejected (GOD for the second time) the princess was unable to discuss what she really wanted to say... it was not love, she was sure of that thing. she cant say the it was him he wanted to be with.. maybe she can live without him... but...as jen aniston said in rumor has it... "i just dont want to.." yes, the princess dont want to live a life without this stranger. she felt "something" that was felt towards someone whom you longed for. but it was not love that time. i can attest to that. (i was the princess' alter ego by the way) but it was something she's unsure of... so she tried to forget her feelings. redirected her attention. but then, it pains her more to see that she cant do something about the unexplainable feeling she has with this stranger. she's happy when she's with him. happier when she hears stories about his father's curiosity. happiest when he looks at her eyes. direct. with a snap. she's sad when he's nowhere to be found. sadder when he cant be reached. saddest when no 'hello' for a day is received. and she even experienced jealousy. her friends in her rubbish castle told her that maybe she started falling in love with him. but how? and why?! why would the princess allowed such silly feeling. he can never be hers. it was a stupid idea. she told the queen about her feelings. the great queen just said, "let go... he's meant for somebody else." in pain, she eventually let go of the feeling, but not the person. but it was very hard. she sees him every day (or maybe she longed to see him every single day) then something happened. it twisted everything. it twisted the masterplan. all that started as 'hirits' became shocking reality bites... all that started as 'biro' became electric bolts that hit the princess... fragile as she was... the experiences left her crying -- again. she wanted to fight for what she felt... she wanted to tell the world that its him she wanted to cry, laugh, watch movies, star gaze, run, fight... but she cant, because it will only cause her another pain that she knows she cant bear anymore. she wanted to quit. just like it. erase him in her life. he wouldnt allow it (or maybe it is what the princess thought) easy way out? no... its the hardest way out... leaving someone is never easy... the stranger is stupid for saying that it was... until now, everything is left hangin' maybe the princess doesnt like the idea... but it was the only way... the only way to keep him.. the only way to have a small part of him... a great man said, 'throw everything away... all the sad stories... the princess should not leave painful stories in her heart' b-u-t not all are sad... not all are painful... not all... most of it is a treasure.. a sure keeper.. but then a decision must be made. she heard from a friend how deeply in love is the stranger to her princess. and also, it was informed to her that the princess, in return, have feelings for the stranger. with that news, the princess made her decision.she may not know if its love or what..that had happened to her...but she's positive that she'll let go of the feeling she had for the stranger because.. like the line from a movie... "he's not here to fight... to fight with me..." and as soon as he read this, he was free from her.you are free from my feelings.

i let you go.

goodbye.