Pagod na..... bukas na lang ako magpopost ng ayos..... bad mood na eh

It's dangling above me

The light coming from behind it's like a wonderful eclipseIt's swaying...

this way

that way

Something begins to fall

Slowly it drops and lands upon my face

The sweet taste of blood fills my mouthand drips down my neck

I want more!

I need more!

But still it hangs there

it sways hereand thereoh please!

give me more!

another drop and oh

how wonderfully warm and soothingit is

to taste this

i am lost in this sea of passion

please

oh please!

let me taste the salty flesh from which it

the steak that hangs there

floating above my head

tempting me

teasing me

torturing me

just like your love...

Love and Commitment

God said:
Let My thoughts be yours.
Catch on to My thinking.
Absorb it.
Enough of your own.
You have chosen folly.
Now choose love.
Serve Me.
Enough of this self-serving of your imaginary self.
Serve Truth.
Be a servant of Truth instead of a purveyor of illusion.
Let Us talk a moment of convenience. How much has convenience ruled your life?
Convenience isn't the same as ease.
Serving your convenience is another form of control that you exert.
Convenience is sort of an opposite to commitment.
When you make a commitment, you are telling yourself what is true.
But you do not know how to reconcile making a commitment and being free.
But there is One to Whom you can make a commitment. There is One to Whom you must, because without that commitment, you are bound.
You free yourself by coming to Me.
You allay your fears by coming to Me.
Your big fear has been to come to Me, for you see that commitment as loss, when, all the while, bondage to the illusory world is what you will let go of. What do you lose when you gain freedom? But freedom is not a passing convenience.
You hold on to your imagined sovereignship for dear life, and you call it convenience. You sleep a little longer, and you call that freedom. Often what My children call freedom is a poor choice. It is more of a declaration than a choice.
Make your own declaration of independence, and make it with Me. Unfurl yourself from the dictatorship of your life that you have imposed upon yourself.
Be My love.
Set My flag up, not yur solitary one.
You have been a man on a little island, proudly waving your flag over two feet of space.
Abandon selfishness. Abandon convenience. Join with Me. You can no longer live on your island. You must abdicate your wobbly throne there and sit high with Me on a golden throne that covers creation.
Master love rather than convenience.
The mastery of love is surrender to that which is greater than your imagined wants.
Get back on course.
Address your heart to Me.
Give it to Me.
Give it to Me in trust of Me and not of yourself. You are not so dependable. You rule by whim. I rule by love. Whim is not freedom. Love is.
Today deliver yourself to Me.
Unwrap your bondage.
Come unadorned.
Come as you are, a perfect child of God who leaves behind chains of ignorance. What is your ego but ignorance? What is love but Truth?
The truth is that you are My love bequeathed to Myself for your sake.
Look at Me.
Be not afraid.
Looking at Me is gain.
Looking away is less than gain.
Be My friend.
Come to Me now.
You commit yourself to work, family, sport, entertainment. Now add Me.
I offer you a gift, and you hesitate.
You fear something is being asked of you that you are not ready for.
I am what you have always been ready for.
I am your Readiness, but I may not be your convenience.
Convenience is not spontaneity.
Make a commitment, and a union is formed. You say you want unity when you choose other than Our unity. You want a name perhaps more than you want Me.
It is time for you to find out where you are. Where have you been? Wrapped up in some dream of self-sufficiency, when, all along, only I am sufficient?
You hobble over stones rather than follow Me. You hold on to your little hierarchy and abandon Truth for the nothingness of your self-imposed ignorance.
Pull down that flag you have put up on your island.
Join forces with Me.
Raise a flag that says God.
Accept Our Oneship.
Accept My love and make it yours.
Let Me be your guide rather than imagined convenience.
I am the Easy Way Out. I am the Way In. I am the Way. Admit you have been lost and following other lostness. Now follow the One Who Knows and Who clasps you to His Heart. Form a partnership with Me, and you will be One Great Big Giver of Truth.

-Gloria Wendroff-

A Looooong Day....

Whaddya know about Ferdinand Marcos? Well, you'd most likely answer, he was President of the Philippines for a while during the 70s and 80s; he is in the running for the most corrupt man of the 20th century; he liked a little bit of martial law now and again and, oh he was married to that woman with the show fetish. Correct on all counts. As you might imagine the details behind the life of such a man make for intriguing reading. From his aquittal for murder at the age of 19, through the numerous White House visits, to the death of Ninoy Aquino and his eventual fall from power all the significant episodes in the life of Ferdinand Edralin Marcos not ot mention the Martial Law.

an hirap hirap ng exam... kakalugaw ng utak... i wish i could be happy as this girl in the picture after finding the result. duh!

Dino, did play as a soccer player before....

In his fourth year at Hogwarts, Harry faces his greatest challenges and dangers yet. When he is selected under mysterious circumstances as a contestant in the Triwizard Tournament, Harry must compete against the best young wizards from schools all over Europe. But as he prepares, signs begin to point to the return of Lord Voldemort. Before long, Harry is playing not just for the Cup, but for his life. Watch out for this!

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

- Sheelagh Lennon -

gutom na 'ko... we're in an internet cafe, getting images that we need to put in our interest page and we're posting na din for our blog. ang lakas lakas ng ulan and we decided not to go to school because SLEX is not passable sa mga vans... imbes na mag-stay na lang sa house, e2 magkasam kami ng mahal ko... better idea huh?!=) for 2 hours we stayed in the cafe. so ngaun, kumukulo na ang tummy ko. i want "goto w/ tokwa" hmmmmm... yummy... tara ng makapag-goto

Another day of never ending start

T.Y.A. (Twenty Years After)

I often say that everything happens for a reason; and that everything has its start and of course, its end.

Pain. What does this mean? Literally, it is to make one hurt or suffer. Now, the question is, how in the world would I ever know the first time I would experience this thing that led me crying? What I know is that this pain that I have experienced on my 22nd year of living made me who I am today.

It’s Year 2025 now, where robots controlled the Earth that was once owned by humans, where everything seem so easy yet no one could ever really know and understand what does the word “satisfaction” really means. Everything did change and so do I.

I have changed. I mean it. You know why? Because I have noticed it. I’m not being paranoid and I know it. I am distant now, not like before. There’s only one person whom I going to share my life with, it’s no other than but me! Dramatic. But that’s how the time took care of Retty for 20 long years.

Perhaps, you see me as someone having a brave heart, someone who is always ready to give you a smile, an incomparable smile, as my other half believed. But now, it’s really different. Maybe I still have that character that’s having a me-against-the-world drama. But who knows, I am brave inside, still.

Listen to what I am not saying. If you would only know me, you’ll feel what I have within. I would tell everything to you. I mean everything that I can tell you, all my thoughts and everything. That would be a very long letter, maybe the longest of all the letters that I have written and would write. I would tell you how I hated my life back then. How I hated my so-called family. How I became who I am today. How I learned not to cry at times that I thought I would, how I learned that I was, I am and will always be strong, how everything affected me, how taught me how to stand and stand up straight, how I learned life or just maybe how I’ve gotten a preview of a real world. Not always happiness. Not always my sadness I also want to tell you how I learned or understood to survive.

But everything has its end, this pain, this hatred, these tears, this fixed smile will come to its end… that end is now. T.Y.A.

I don’t know if this article makes sense to you. But this entry made a lot of sense to me.

By the way, MY ENTRY WAS JUST MY INITIAL REACTIONS… I DO LOVE MY FAMILY!!!

JEALOUSY IS ABOUT FEAR

It is crucial to understand what jealousy is and what it is about. Jealousy is about fear--fear of the unknown and of change, fear of losing power or control in a relationship, fear of scarcity and of loss, and fear of abandonment. It is a reflection of our own insecurity about our worthiness, anxiety about being adequate as a lover, and doubts about our desirability.
For every jealous feeling there is an emotion behind the jealousy that is much more significant than the jealousy itself. Behind jealousy there is an unmet need or a deep fear that our needs will not be met. Recognizing those fears and unmet needs is the key to unmasking jealousy and taking away its power. Jealousy is just the finger pointing at the fears and needs we are afraid to face. When jealousy kicks in, it is the ancient reptilian part of our brain going into a "fight or flight" response because we feel that our very survival is threatened. When you feel jealous, ask yourself, "What is it that I am really afraid of? What do I need to make this situation safe for me?" "What is the worst thing that could happen and how likely is that to happen?" Selosa ako lately... dunno y...

It's my cousin's 1st birthday... i gained some weight and a belly... harhar... kakapagod. all of our cousins were there. It was celebrated sa kulay pulang fastfood chain at may mascot na bubuyog. we were all happy... an tatakaw... as if mga bata pa kami to think we're all in early 20's at age. nakakapagod. we joined the parlor games. an dupang. hehehe! well, as usual... nothing's seems really different pag weekends. boring... duh! ciao!

BAD TRIP.... ASK DINO FOR WHAT HAPPENED....

Even this man could not make me smile now... i missed him..

Pachuchay!

I was about to post my entry when I heard these guys talking so loud... actually they were really shoutin' haay naku tama ba naman un sa cafe pa nag-away. At 1st, I didn't mind them pero grabe na sila. hellllooooo... ayaw pang umuwi na lang. Then i looked, Oh my god! old time fwends pala. hehehe... beso dyan, beso d2... "Oh pachuchay, blooming ah. Sensya na ang ingay namin!" Yan ang tawag sakin ng mga superfwends ko way back in highschool, ay nakow... ang haba ng usapan. I really missed them. Anyway, gone are the days na magkakasama kami sa gimikan. Nakakalungkot... ganun talaga buhay... sometimes you have to part ways...

I started to love this anime.... and its because of Dino.

Another day in our history.... A dull day in the politics....

FORMER President Corazon Aquino and actress Susan Roces arrived at the House of Representatives on Monday to witness the plenary deliberations on a committee report that dismissed the impeachment complaints filed against President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo.

When would it end?

Dog Motel?

Two Yorkshire terriers, Billy (R) and Jully (L), sit in a pet motel in Sao Paulo August 26, 2005. The doggy love motel, complete with a heart-shaped mirror on the ceiling and a headboard resembling a doggy bone, has opened for amorous pooches in Brazil. The doggy love motel in Sao Paulo, South America's largest city, was inspired by the thousands of such establishments that rent rooms to Brazilian couples for four-hour periods for trysts. The air-conditioned pet love motel room, with a paw print decorative motif, has a special control panel to dim the lights, turn on romantic music or play films. The dog motel, which opened this month, costs 100 reais ($41) for two hours. Picture taken August 26, 2005. REUTERS/Fernando Cavalcanti

meron pala rin pan-dog... hehehe

A hand-painted sign outside a New Orleans business warns away looters in the wake of Hurricane Katrina Thursday, Sept. 1, 2005. Ethicists and social psychologists said in interviews that rules of human behavior _ including respect for others' property and for social order itself _ dissolve quickly in desperate circumstances like the storm's aftermath. nde lang Pilipinas an naghihirap ngayon... haaay...

Crazy Frog

Crazy Frog presents Crazy Hits sees the frog at his finest. In addition to the massive Axel F and Popcorn, the Crazy Frog adds his inimitable style to classics such as the theme to Dallas, Felix's Don't You Want Me, Technotronic's Pump Up The Jam and The Pink Panther theme.

Sorry po sa mga kapamilya... it's my favorite now lalo na pag "bulagaan." This dance hit is kinda weird. It defnitely can't stop you from dancing. The beat was great... at kahit magmukha ka ng retarded, sarap pa din isayaw.